Incompetent Treatment

I often wonder why the VA as inadequate services for females. The simple explanation is they are more male than female veterans. But really, that's just a surface answer. If you are a female veteran, like I am, you already have an idea.

In the military culture, females are second class. The point of view is of one that we don't belong or we belong for the sole purpose of supporting the males. I won't get into that particular scenario any further for right now.

Apparently the same philosophy is at the VA as well. Now I have to ask myself why and how? Most of the people at the VA are not actually veterans. Amazing right? So where do they get this idea, this culture carry over? They shouldn't be in the thought process of females not belonging. I understand in my clinic and hospital, cater mainly to males. In my clinic, I am 1 of 6 females versus the hundreds of males they see daily. In that aspect, I get it. However, the point is, why is my treatment and/or care inadequate?

Some males I know can go in and have no problem getting great care. They get scripted narcotics without transferring medical records in. Their word about their pain is automatically taken at face value. When I go in, I have to fight to get them to treat me and believe I really have pain. Why is that?

I am service connected, which means I have a certified disability from the military. This automatically puts me into a higher priority group. Since my disability rating is higher, my priority is higher. Why is it when I call to get in, I can't. However, these same males that I know aren't even service connected and in a lower priority than me and somehow can get in quicker than I can. I really want to know how that works! That's against their own rules, but yet they break them.

At the end of the day, the same discrimination carries over from the military to the VA. I have no answer for why though. All I know is it infuriates me to be treated as a second class citizen. I gave this country and my branch of service, my blood, sweat, and tears literally. I deserve the same respect my male counterparts are automatically given. I shouldn't be forced to take my service connected health issues to a private doctor to receive treatment. If you're service connected, they are required to take care of that health issue. They broke you so they get to fix you.... unless you're the wrong gender. If so, prepare for an uphill battle that will take every trick you know plus some to win!

A reporter that I spoke with sometime ago thought it was huge that females are mistreated. I said well, being as I have lived it many times over, it's not that big of a deal to me. In fact, females expect it. Ask any female active duty or vet and see what they say. It's common knowledge to us. I know there was a time when I just expected that civilians knew this. However, after dealing with the media and civilians, I have realized that the majority of Americans have no clue what the culture in the military is. It doesn't matter which branch you were/are in, the culture is the same. I have sisters from every branch and eras and it is common knowledge and still the same culture. The US Government, who by the way is being sued for the mistreatment of females, says we as females should expect it and then goes on to say (paraphrased here) that we are collateral damage. We are the expendable ones. That is exactly how we are treated.

It makes me angry that I gave part of my life to this country and the government sees me as collateral damage and expendable. I am a human and all humans have basic god given rights. How dare the government think of me as anything less than a human who was hired by them to do a job... not a POS and to be treated as such for being the wrong gender. How dare the VA treat me as a POS, denying care for my service connected disability, allowing non-service connected males to be seen more quickly than me. I earned those benefits. I got hurt in the line of duty only to come home to a VA who has taken the same stance against females as the military.

The civilians have no clue that we are treated this way. I have been thanked more times than I know what to do by civilians men and women alike. That's always followed by what branch were you in and then the jaw dropping. Yes ladies and gentlemen, I am really that tough lol Back to the subject at hand though... Americans don't know and them treating me in this manner proves it. The discrimination is military and VA specific.

I am not expendable or collateral damage and I should have to expect mistreatment as part of taking the job. I am a human being. Treat me like one.

Dear VA I Now Prounce You to Fuck Off!

Dear VA,

I hate your fucking guts! I can't believe half the shit you try to do to veterans and I certainly can't believe you hire doctors who hate veterans to treat their medical needs.

You made one really big mistake, You chose me to mess with. I am a fighter and I will always be a fighter. I will never lay down and take anybody's shit. The shit you tried pulling on me... WRONG ANSWER!!!

You don't know who I am or who I know. All you know is that I am a second class stupid BAM or WM, but guess what? You're WRONG.

I will bring you down and make you pay for the bullshit you did. I will change it for every single vet out there. Laugh if you will. Tell me I am nothing. Tell me I can't do it. And guess what will happen? I will be the one laughing as I watch your establishment the way you knew it crumble and burn to the ground.

That's the really funny thing, media loves stories of mistreatment of vets. Congressmen and Senators love it. The FBI loves to investigate it because most of them are vets as well too and since y'all are fed the FBI gets to handle you.

The one lone mistake you made was picking somebody who knows the law and who is well connected.

You have become my personal quest now.

I now pronounce you to fuck off and get ready for the shit storm coming your way. I am....

Insert Witty Headline Here....

I'm sitting here waiting on the meds to kick in... I am so angry I am literally shaking trying to keep my adrenaline in check. It's radiating throughout my body making my heart pound and my muscles tense. The one thing I know about myself is when I get like this I have to hide. If I don't I will end up beating somebody down.

The tears you may ask? Eff the tears! I will never let on that they got through my thick skin. All I got to say say is you are a piece of shit liar! And on that note, I'm leaving it there.

As usual, I will be walking this road alone again. I can see now why hate is so easy to have.

Mommy Is In Time Out!

I have been feverishly working to get my house spotless as we have a very important guest coming tomorrow. My kids won't co-operate nor will my husband nor will my animals co-operate. I feel like I need to kick everybody out of this house until tomorrow!

I would also really like to know why my house smells like piss... I believe it was the cat who was pissed we put her in the basement. Once I figure out where the piss smell is coming from I guess I get to clean that and then I am going to figure out what to do with the cat because she is going bye bye... and yes I really mean that. She's a straight bitch. She claws my furniture and door frames. Now I have found claw marks all in my solid oak brand new wood cabinets. She sometimes feels like going in her litter box. Her fur is constantly flying all over the place- which BTW I am extremely allergic to.

My kids decided to break my desk drawers. My house came with a desk in the kitchen. This desk has drawers. My kids decided it would be a great idea to shove all their crap in and of course it got stuck! So then they said uh oh better get it out to which they somehow ripped the drawer right out of the desk and it appears that they actually broke the rollers. Fantastic... tell me what hardware store is open in small town USA? Yea exactly.

I am having a very hard time controlling my anger today. I want things to go right and I want to get done with my housework, but nothing seems to be going my way which is in turn feeding more into my anger. So I decided perhaps I should take a break and blog it out... otherwise my anger might just boil over and that's when people start getting hurt. I don't want to hurt people nor do I like it... so here's my mommy time out. I guess moms need to go in time out too huh? lol

This is not how I envisioned spending my 4th... But at least there are fireworks tonight!!! Happy 4th everybody. God Bless America and especially the south!!!

Perspective ....

For those of you who don't know, I am a United States Marine Corps veteran- and in case you're wondering: NO I would never go back. I have been thinking quite a bit lately about being a veteran and active duty...

As I look back at my time in service, what I gave up was not worth it. I look back now and wondered why I ever gave it up; to fight a war some presidents said were good for us? For all you gung-ho active duty people, spare me the ensuring your freedom speech. I've heard it at least a thousand times before...

I gave up far more than what the officials of the country deserve and at the end of the day, I am expendable to them. Every single person in the military regardless of branch is expendable. Out of everybody though, females are the most expendable. We are treated the worst. It is common knowledge that they (males) don't want us there and they make sure to tell us that we don't belong. They make fun of us for being weak and nasty because we need a shower every 3 days for our feminine hygiene needs. We are weak because we cry sometimes. We are weak because we can't run as fast as the males. The list goes on and on and on...

You may be wondering what is it I gave up? I gave up who I was and everything I loved. I walked away from it all. I am a disabled veteran now. I wasn't weak and I didn't let them break me... not for lack of trying on their part like putting me an 8 month pregnant woman on hard labor as a punishment for something I didn't even do. And yes they do crap like that ALL THE TIME. I could go on and on, but I'll save it for more blogs...

I have had to deal with this and face it all week. I had to sit there and read my SRB so I can give parts to my VSO (Veteran's Service Officer). At the end of the day, the only thing that happens is I wind up a lot more angrier!

Where do I go from angry? I don't want to live in a constant state of anger, but the more I am forced to face this mess, the more it triggers me. People don't understand I have a huge black storm inside me. Some days I can calm it other days there's no chance in hell it will calm! It isn't a matter of if I snap, but rather WHEN. I got away from this lifestyle for a reason and yet here I am being forced back into the lifestyle and the type of people I can't stand. The type of people that I want nothing to do with. I don't care which branch you go to, the males all think alike. They may not say anything the first time, but it wont be long before they do and when they do it will be inappropriate, hateful, spiteful, humiliating, and demoralizing.

Better lock your wives, daughters, and sisters up... they effing everybody up in here....

More to come in a later blog